Who I still am

I used to love those questionnaires on Myspace back in the day.   Back when my life was so easy and  wasn't all sadness and anger and jealousy.

These days I can't stand when people ask me how I am or what my summer plans are.  I'm terrible and nothing, thanks for asking.  And yes, they mean well.  I know.

I know I am more than grief, and that the pain will ease eventually, but it's hard being someone other than Baby Loss Mom.  Sometimes I don't want to be known as anyone besides Ramona's Mom.  It's the most important thing about me, I feel.  There is more, though.

So here's 10 things about me (grief aside):

If you could have dinner with anyone in the world, who would it be?
Groucho Marx.  I used to dress up as Groucho for Halloween every year.  I think he is amazing.

What are you reading right now?
I have a stack of five books on my desk right now.  It's hard to narrow them down when you're surrounded by books all day.  I think the one I'll focus on is the fourth book of the Jacky Faber series.  I love badass sailor chicks.

What is your favourite colour?
Purple.  When my husband were getting to know each other I found out his favorite color is purple too.  Meant to be.

Your favourite book?
A Tree Grows in Brooklyn. It's weird being able to relate to Sissy, though.  I used to feel terrible for her, and now I know how she feels, even if she is a fictional character. 

What are you passionate about?
I am passionate about reading.  I'm a children's librarian and I think children and adults alike should take time to read something every day.  Reading is the foundation of all knowledge.  I could never understand people who claimed they hadn't read a book in years.  Pick one up, dummies.
 
Favourite movie?
I find this harder to answer than my favorite book for some reason, and I love reading more than I love watching movies.  Three I can watch anytime are L.A. Confidential, Master and Commander, and Cold Comfort Farm.  OH, and the A&E Pride and Prejudice.  I will watch that every damn day.

Hobbies?
I'm a big crafter.  I'll try anything once, knitting, felting, beading, whatever.  I'm also into fitness.  I love yoga, biking, weights.  I don't really have an awesome body to show for it, but it did wonders for labor. 

Any bad habbits?
I'm an unrepentant nail biter.  I've made my peace with it.  My nails are ugly anyway.

What have you been procrastinating on?
My best friend and I are making prayer flags for the Day of Hope and we haven't bought any supplies yet.  We really want to do it, but it's hard to get motivated to do anything lately.  Sigh.

What is your perfect idea of a night in?
We rarely go out, so a night in is our thing.  I would have to say take-out sushi, wine, and a good tv series.  Right now we're watching Twin Peaks.  I've never watched it before and it is cracking me up.


I am still standing in memory of Ramona.